Somebody shake me, please

You know those people in undergrad that don't do any work until the night before and still pull of B's or better?

Fuck 'em.

I seriously hate those people. And stop sitting next to me at the library.

It is apparent who is putting in the work and who is not - and just because you are always in the library doesn't mean that you are always working. I smirk at those on perezhilton.com, because I'm so there...

I've been studying my butt off, actually since the middle of October I've made a little home in the library.

What I PLANNED on doing, was reading the E&E's before each concept, clarifying in hornbooks. What I DID was read the cases, and then I did CALI lessons before class. I can honestly say that I often couldn't follow in class. There were days when I could, and days when I couldn't. It was tough. I think for me it was mostly a language problem - I wasn't an english major, or philosophy, or anything impressive.

I will tell you that at each and every review, I was able to follow. I may not be able to recite the particular facts of each case, but I do know the rules, generally, and how they apply or how a case demonstrates the application of a rule. And I think that's good.

I will say that my outlines are not complete yet. And that is scary.

I think elaboration is necessary to my last post and I promise to do that.

I know that people will find themselves in my situation and feel like I feel, and it sucks. But, there is a line I keep reminding myself of in "Law School Confidential" that says "Have you ever willed yourself through something?"

You gotta will yourself through law school. And never forget why you came in the first place, never.

I'll be back. I promise!

Law school really does a number on one's confidence. So, what happens when one has little confidence to begin with? To be blunt, you are fucked.

I've been humiliated in class so many times I've lost count. And, no, contrary to what my classmates believe, it isn't because I'm stupid. Duh. I got in to law school, too. I just keep freezing up when called on.

Furthermore, I've ruined my long term relationship and am consoling myself by sleeping with a member of My Law School Class of 2011. Someone who I wouldn't give the time of day to, had we not both been in law school.

And finally, I'm 75 cents overdrawn in my bank account. This is the...fourth time this semester, and the fourth time in my life, that I've ever been overdrawn.

Frankly, my life is a fucking mess. And I'm about to embark upon finals.

My friends, I will be fine. But please - don't let this happen to you.